I’m on a learning curve!
I thought I’d cracked this Law of Attraction thingy but I’m now realising that it is a constant test of strength, determination and staying power.
We’re still doing the prosperity game every day. We’ve hit the £60k mark and so far we’ve ‘virtually’ given to numerous charities, bought boats, holiday homes, clothes, jewellery etc.
And….things are coming into realisation, we are drawing to us money, experiences and long wished for items.
I went and had a little spend this morning in readiness for our five days in Padstow (something we had ‘ordered’ through the prosperity game). I got home laden with bags, happy that I had spent within our budget. My first job after getting me and smallest child successfully through the door without either of us falling down the steps or tripping over each other, was to check the post.
Only two letters….happy days…oh hold on…West Midlands Police!! oh *!/**”!?/~#. Speeding….again!!!! Where this time? Road works on the M6!!! Grrrrrrr……another sixty thousand pound fine or whatever it is now!
The first thing I did was call my other half to tell him. ‘Oh…ah….er…em’. He said, not very helpfully. He then threw me a curve ball ‘You know my expenses claim. The one that we were using to fund our Padstow spend, you know so we can eat at Fifteen and Rick Steins place? Well I’ve been told I can only claim £50 worth….something…cash flow…something…September…..something’.
Oh great! I sat looking at the pile of bags by the door. I immediately felt deflated and then anxious that I’d overspent. ‘Hey…it’s ok!’ I suddenly realised that my ever positive other half was still on the ‘phone. ‘It will all be alright you know. It always is. We’ll just have to cook for ourselves and have picnics. It’ll be fun’
I know it will be alright, but why does the universe keep doing this to me. As soon as i think I’ve got all sussed, and that wealth is finally flowing to us, something happens! I can only think it’s to keep me on my toes. It’s not like we’re destitute, we have a home, our health and each other, the occasional treat is just that…occasional and I guess that makes us appreciate them even more.
I saw a former lottery winner being interviewed on GMTV a few weeks back. A lovely woman who looked like she had her head screwed on the right way. She said that winning the lottery had made her realise what she DIDN’T want. Before her lottery win she used to look at things in the shops and say to herself, ‘I wish I had the money for that.’ Once she won the lottery she realised that she didn’t want any of those things, it made her prioritise what she DID want. I thought that was a great way of looking at the things.
So instead of feeling fed up, I’ve decided, while I’ve been writing this, to feel excited about what happens next. Time to put my postive thinking cap on and manifest some spending money!! Because I DO want to go to Rick Steins Restaurant!!!
